the ics worker came today and i forgot what i had told myself i wanted to work on. i've been telling myself i wanted to work on something specific but then i told him i couldn't remember but i'd call him if i thought of it. ONE of the things i was thinking of came to me since zen told me that he used to be a cook. i can figure out how to make just about everything and i learned from occupational therapy how to make microwave quesadillas, cheeseburgers, tacos, and spaghetti. the only other thing i could think of at the moment that i also wanted to learn how to make was burritos. although i'll more than likely just end up putting already made burritos in the microwave or oven to save time. everyone assumes i can't and don't do anything JUST because i have a pca. they don't bother to acknowledge that he ONLY comes 5 hours a day now just to walk me (up and down the hall for 15 minutes- so i'm safe and i don't fall, but i get my exercise for at least 15 minutes every day). plus, my pca washes my clothes now since the washing machine/dryer on this floor is broken and the washing machines/dryer that work are upstairs and there isn't an elevator in this particular apartment. it pisses me off that people assume that i can't do anything just because i have a pca and tbi. he also helps me get groceries because *gasp* I DON'T HAVE MY DRIVER'S LICENSE STILL! IT WAS REVOKED BECAUSE IT EXPIRED AND EVERYONE JUST ASSUMED I'D BE A VEGETABLE ALL MY LIFE AND IN A DAMN WHEELCHAIR- SO THEY IGNORED MAKING SURE I WAS ABLE TO BE FULLY CAPABLE AND ABLE TO MOVE AROUND INDEPENDENTLY WHEREEVER I WANT, WHEN I WANT BECAUSE WHO THE FUCK CARES ABOUT STACY. no.. my family is too concerned with their OWN happiness to make sure their vulnerable family member is taken care of so that she's TRULY happy. they just assume that i'm happy because everyone is doing everything for me while many of them are judging me for it because they're egotistical pricks and at least they're "smarter" than ONE person (me) because there's no way they can do anything for themselves because THEM being the SMART doctors everyone should know they are- can categorize and diagnose other people just to make things convenient for THEM so their carelessness towards their family member ACTUALLY looks like it makes sense seeing as that particular relative has other goals and a different mindset than them and it's just more convenient and more EASIER for THEM to ignore their vulnerable adult relative's true intentions and goals because that relative is just crazy and stupid, they don't know how to think properly because they DO have a TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY!! RIGHT AMANDA? SHE'S STUPID AND NO ONE CARES ABOUT HER, SHE'LL EVENTUALLY FORGET WHAT SHE WANTS!
i've also been applying to different jobs on indeed and i honestly came across at least 5 of the damn jobs in the types of jobs i'm interested in that REQUIRE a driver's license. not ALL jobs "require" driver's licenses MY ASS. who told you that for your own fucking NEGLECTFUL CONVENIENCE? IF WE CONVINCE STACY THAT NOT ALL JOBS REQUIRE A DRIVER'S LICENSE, WE DON'T HAVE TO ACTUALLY PUT EFFORT INTO ACTUALLY CARING ABOUT IF SHE'S A FULLY FUNCTIONING SUCCESSFUL INDIVIDUAL BECAUSE HER BRAIN INJURY MAKES HER TOO STUPID TO THINK OTHERWISE! YEAH AMANDA AND THE REST OF MY FAMILY ARE SO SMART AND CARING! UNEMPATHETIC DICKS.
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